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School Life (2)

Ever since i enrolled into this school, i’ve changed a lot. In what sense? My behavior, perhaps? Haha, the girl who used to be very quiet in school, has had " morphed " to a much sociable person. I remember, back in secondary school, i dont usually talk. Seldom heard my voice in class.

Now, in Nafa, haha, people probably cant wait for me to shut my mouth. Haha..

Well, i like my classmates, i’m saying this not because of i have a couple of them in my friends’ list, but, is the truth alright ?! haha, small but close. (^.^) Unlike the class i used to be in, disorganised, but, they are all straight-forward people, thats what i like about them. I prefer a rather honest kind of class, tells you what they think of you, instead of at the back.

Prejudgemental caused communication break-down. Clarification ensures no misunderstandings. Do not wait till when you’re old, then realise you’ve misunderstood that person. Dont wait for that person to come to you. Dont assume. It might not be that way.

I guess having such a tight schedule, also a good thing.. Haha.. At least, it doesn’t make me think that much. Still, it doesnt stop me from beating myself emotionally. I feel horrible ~ thinking i’m still unworthy… to be in this family. I still cant shake off those criticisms. I love my family, i love my brother, and i’m proud to have him as my brother.. (*sob sob). Why must people always put us on a balance? comparing .. Why? It’s not fair. We are born to have different capabilities. Each of us are unique. Why? Why they have to put me on a balance with someone else and compare what we’ve been through? So what if the answer is, " you are more unfortunate than her? " Does it make us feel any better? Sigh.. It is so hard to bring this idea across to the older generation… Sigh.. Well, i’m trying not to take it personally. Still, it hurts.

i guess, maybe because i’ve always lend my ears to those in need, listen to their problems and provide them with solutions, make me differ from those in my age. Haha.. I still remember, i did this test.. A mental age test. It says my… mental age was 26.

Er.. ahahaha.. i keep on going off the subject.. ahahaha.. it’s s’pose to be about school.. ahahahha..

Ok, i’ll try to be constant next time.. haha

Cheers !!!

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